Just a Rant

I don’t know but I have higher expectations from anyone older than me. I always assume that since they have walked the earth for a longer time than I have already, they’re more matured, their EQ is higher. Not that being young is an excuse for being irrational, but really I just think older ones should know, and act, and think better. 

Case in point – a friend who expects me to be there each time she needs someone to rant and rave about her day on just because she thinks I have a lot of free time in my hands. Being in research where I am not required to show my face in the firm every single day, I really do have quite a lot of free time. But I made it clear that I do not intend to spend precious time inside Starbucks filling my system with caffeine and listening to other people’s shit. Aside from my friend’s. Or walking around the mall, occasionally entering high end stores trying on stuff I will not buy even if I can because I think they’re just not practical. Or watching movies just because it’s in theaters, or it’s big, or some people say it’s good. 

More than a decade of friendship wasn’t really enough to convince my friends that I may compromise, but I shall never let anybody tell me what to do. Or make me conform to what’s in or expected. 

And really, we can stay friends even if we don’t see each other a lot, right? We do not have to drain each other by meeting everyday talking about the same stuff. Aaargh, perhaps it’s my impatience. Or my personality being completely different from them. I just firmly believe that if something doesn’t work, then let go and move on. That you can never help what people think. That we’re all different and not everyone will think or act as we do so let’s all just practice respect. 

And that at some point, we will have to figure things out by our selves. We can’t always have someone. We need friends but we have to learn to stand on our own, make decisions and be firm on it. 

I have gone so far. This post was actually triggered by well, Spiderman 3. A friend treated us last night to watch it. It’s okay. I’m not a fan but I kept an open mind. It fell short of my expectations. Ergo, I didn’t like it. And that’s just me. Not trying to sway anyone’s opinion. Or discourage anyone from watching it. 

And this friend texted earlier asking if I wanna watch. I said, I already watched it and didn’t like it, so I have no plans of seeing it again. 

She said “Others say it’s okay naman. What’s wrong with it?” 

So I said the exact same thing I said above. She knows I am quite critical with what I see, hear or read. I know what I want; I have my own standards of what I consider to be good. 

She texted a sad emoticon L and “yabang mo naman.” 

I am like “;-) you asked for my opinion and when I gave it I’m mayabang na?” 

She texted back a real smiley and still convinced me to watch. Anyway, I’ll be in the mall later. I said I might have to meet someone. And so she went on who asked to meet me first. Hello?! 

I maybe just a really bad/difficult and taray friend. But really, we’re adults. Things like that shouldn’t be such a big deal. Ayayay.