Archive for June, 2007

blue moon

Posted in i am random, what's going on on June 27, 2007 by supahnova

There will be a second full moon this coming Saturday, June 30. otherwise called the blue moon, as it occurs only every four years, a lot of myths surround this phenomena. It does inspire writers and artists but what’s most notable is how the blue moon always has something to do with one’s er, love life.

They say that if you are recently brokenhearted at the time of a blue moon, then that means it’ll take a long tiem before you can get over the pain. While if you are with someone, then it is said that it means you’ll stay longer, even forever. So, as a friend would put it – you’ll either be forever blue, or your love is true. Ngek!

Whatever, it is going to be my first time to actually see a blue moon, so i am pretty excited. I hope i can take good photos, or better yet i hope i can come up with a nice written piece ;-)

Serious, Shameless Plugging of, uh, Myself

Posted in i am random, remember this moment on June 24, 2007 by supahnova

I have the big bright idea for a reality TV show which I want to air on my favorite local channel (QTV 11). It’s something that will run for 30 days, involves two people and a nice little place called – a condo unit! And well, the entire metro manial and some provinces, maybe. And I already have in mind who I want to be in it – and one of them is a friend, who’s some sort of a famous person. (man, I hope she’s not reading this cos she’s gonna whip my ass) and another person who I think is just perfect for the concept I have in mind. It’s funny I would lay in bed each night thinking about this, how things will go, what I will make them do and stuff. Geez I  am dying for it to materialize! Can somebody tell me how to get in touch with anyone from QTV so I can pitch my concept? I swear I’m going to light up, brighter than a mirrorball while I pitch. Hahaha ;-)  And, I have a jazillion plots in my head – two for a feature film, and uh, 5 for a novel? Okay, so that’s really 6, not a jillion ;-) I have the outlines save din my USB. I just need the time and the drive to write them in full. Man this is one of those times when I’m just bursting with ideas I might pop. But I am really really excited about the reality TV thing. Trust me, it’s something you have never seen before. It’s some sort of an experiment. A 30 day what-if. It’s kind of a huge mix of all other TV shows (reality or otherwise) smoothly folded and blended into a docu-movie like thingy that is..dun dun duuunn…my concept! So, can anybody hok me up with QTV peeps? ;-)

because less is more ;-)

Posted in remember this moment, what's going on on June 20, 2007 by supahnova

There comes a point when complaining and bitching and just plainly whining about things that are going on, or people that pisses you off, gets exhausting. I guess over the past few weeks I am slowly reaching that point and you know what? It’s actually been doing me good. It’s not that there is anything wrong about voicing out opinions cos after all, it is everyone’s constitutional right. But when one gets slowly consumed by it and it becomes a compulsion that’s when one’s got to stop and look oneself in the mirror and ask “what the fuck am I doing?” 

I have bitched, complained, whined about things and people so many times in the past and reading them now gives me this intolerable feeling of exhaustion after each paragraph. I am one annoying biatch. And unconsciously I have become the very person or thing I have complained about. 

Maybe it’s the rainy season that’s making me reflect and come to this epiphany. Nevertheless, as I have said earlier it has been doing me good. Like the promised effects of a beauty product I have always wanted to try. I can see the results each time I wake up.  

I am not about to become as optimistic and unrealistically perky as a cheerleader on crack but at least now, I know better than to succumb to unnecessary emotions that will have me venting to the nearest available person about how much this or that thing sucks, or how and why this or that person annoys the hell out of me. It should not be too difficult to get rid of such unnecessary reactions. After all, there are a lot of things I can do with all the time and energy I used to expend on all that bitching. 

Oh yeah the rainy season, officially manifesting itself more than the scorching heat of summer is turning me into a bitch, but for better reasons. Yes, there is such a thing, or person. Hee, whatever. But I am loving it. Really.

Is It Just Me? Or What…

Posted in life, love, et al, what's going on on June 12, 2007 by supahnova

I could cite the following reasons:

- clash of principles (they play safe, I choose to fight; they settle for what’s given them, while I won’t stop till I am truly fullfilled)

- differences in opinions (let’s just say that they’re republicans and I am a democrat, sort of. They’re either admin or opposition while I am the third force)

- new priorities (they are all thinking of settling down, while I continue to reach for bigger dreams and aim for bigger pursuits)- ch-ch-changes (which they somehow resent, while I welcome them with open arms)

When you find yourself becoming an individual and striving for what you believe in or try to attain your goals in life, sometimes the people who seem close to you drift away.As one matures, one finds that those around them sometimes are standing still and they have outgrown them.Drifting apart from your friends happens its a way of life.

But when its slowly happening and there’s not a damn thing you can do about it, it slowly starts to rip away at you. Sorta like walking to your own death. You see it coming yet you continue to walk. I don’t know anymore. As I continue to drift I wonder is it me or everybody else? Will I drift beyond reach? Or will the promise of sweet drizzles and cold rainshowers bring hope again? Real independence, indeed, has a price.

3 things…again

Posted in what's going on on June 7, 2007 by supahnova

1. i just received an email from the institution where i finished my grade school to give an “inspirational” talk to this year’s graduating students. This will take place during a week long event where they invite guests from high schools and colleges, and members of the alumni. The students get to ask questions too. The thing is – me? Give an inspirational talk? I know about 30% of my teachers then are still there, and they all know what kind of kid i was. Oh dear, if only the kids knew what a little devil i was then (i get sent to the guidance office a lot for beating up boys, that’s despite being quite frail and tiny. Hehehe.) i am sure nobody will ever listen to me talk.;-)

     

2. yesterday i spent hours walking around ShnagriLa with my friend i was ranting about on a previous post. Turns out she was transferred to a different work schedule and therefore she will no longer see this married guy she’s into. She was telling me how she had been crying over it, and i just listened. And still listened when she began gushing about him and telling me stuff about him. She was all giddy and kilig, and i would just give the proper reaction so as not to upset her. But without telling her that i think the transfer is a wake up call, and god’s way of telling her she should just forget about whatever it is she has for the guy. I told her that every chance i got although i am not sure she really absorbed them cos she’s like “Listen to me..you know this one time… blah blah blah”… GRRRRHH, i cannot believe she is really considering dating a married man!

     

3. Guilty pleasures: okay, so my friends would think this is really icky or baduy, but i have bookmarked the Philippine Entertainment portal’s website and have been having a blast reading it… but not really enjoying the local showbiz chismis but the reader’s comments! God, they’re funny! My favorite so far was this item about Ylmaz Bektas calling Ruffa Gutierrez “Brutus”, where comments ranges from Ruffa-Annabelle bashing to – a discussion of Roman history and literature! Tee hee. Check check check it out! www.pep.ph

I Just “Shot” Someone

Posted in remember this moment, the neighborhood, what's going on on June 5, 2007 by supahnova

Last night while walking home from the palengke, my neighbor Bing, who was wearing rubber flip flops, seared her the skin of her sole with a dirty tack. She is an OR nurse, who is naturally, very familiar with what even the smallest cut or wound can possibly do to anybody, so she was very paranoid about getting lockjaw due to tetanus, or something like that. Usually i would just accompany her to the wet market, help out with preparing our dinner (because i have the lowest self esteem when it comes to cooking). Last night we were supposed to have curried mixed seafood (that’s shrimp, squid, mussels plus carrots and potatoes) but because she was so worried about being infected, she immediately conferred with her colleagues on the phone and deliberated what they should do. She left all the ingredients at the table, at my mercy, staring at it not knowing what to do. Well, i do know what to do but i am afraid it will not turn out right. So, just to help, i cleaned the squid, mussels and shrimp. Sliced the squid and shelled the shrimp while i boil the mussels. Then cut the veggies and prepared the spices.

After boiling the mussels i took them out of their shell and put them along side the sliced quid and shelled shrimp. I waited for my friend who is running to and from her bedroom to the living room, while on the phone. The rice is already cooked and i am getting hungrier by the minute. LOL When she finally noticed that everything was already prepared and i am looking at them uncertainly, she apologized and hugged me, and explained what was going on.

She needed to get a temporary shot of tetanus toxoid, a live virus thingy that will be injected on her fore arm. She will get said substance from the nearby Mercury drug. But before that, we should cook first. And cooked we, or she did. I was silently saying prayers of thanks to the angels. Whew!

But after dinner and after getting the substance (which came with an ice cube), syringes and needles came the shocker. I should give her the shot. She can do it but she would be on a most comfortable position and she might hit the wrong nerve. I was mortified. I rarely look at the part of my body that receives the shot – i always look the other way. I can tolerate the pain but i cant look at it. And now she’s asking me to give her the shot – as in be the one to inject the somewhat thick substance, which i know will hurt a lot!

I told her, while vigorously shaking my head that i so cannot do it. “then who will?” she asked me. I said I’ll ask my house mates. I went to my place next door but nobody wants to do it. Bing was egging me come on. “you can do it. I will guide you through it” i keep shaking my head, my eyes widening in horror. She sat down and showed me that i just have to hold up her forearm a certain way, then the syringe this way, then hit this particular spot and just do it.

Ayoko talaga!” i protested. She insisted i can. I said i won’t be able to see it cos i have poor eyesight. She pointed out that I’m still wearing my contacts. I shook my head.

She went to get a glass of water. Then made me drink it. Then brought me to the sink and washed my hands. “you’re not even shaking, you’re fine. You can do it!” she said. Aaarrgh i am beginning to panic. I guess she saw the panic in my eyes so she told me to take deep breathes. “this is funny, i am the one who’s about to get the shot. You wimp.” i just pursed my lips.

Then she told me about how we sort of rescued/helped this couple in a motorcycle who had a minor accident last week. We were walking from the LRT station to the neighborhood where we’re both renting apartments. Then we saw this motorbike swerve perilously to one side and eventually collapsed, cos they were trying to stick to the designated lane when this stupid car whizzed by on a really nasty overtake. The couple, probably both in their early 30s, looked to have broken something, despite them wearing helmets. They’re both lying on the ground and struggling to get up, as their legs were under their bike. She immediate rushed to the couple and told them to stay still. Thankfully they’re both responding to her. She asked me to attend to the woman, as she will instruct me what to check. Well, i do remember my girl scout first aid. LOL. Once we checked for vital signs and made sure there wasn’t any sign of trauma, we helped them get up to a sitting position. Then we pulled their bike up from their leg. And then helped them stand up. We asked them if they want to be taken to the hospital, we can hail a cab. They both couldn’t say thank you enough, and even got our names. We said it’s okay.

After telling me this i guess i felt myself calming down, and coming around a bit. But i couldn’t help but voice out my concern. What if i get it wrong? She said that’s not possible. She checked my breathing, my vital signs LOL and when she decided I’m okay to administer the shot, she quickly got on her feet and prepared it. After a few minutes, she handed me the syringe, then she said on the dining table so it’s easier for me. She told me to squeeze a part of her fore arm, and hold it up. Firmly. Then told em to position my fingers on the syringe. Hold it, point the needle against the spot which she pointed to me earlier. Then just inject it. Push, then pull.

Ohmygod, ohmygod, after i withdrew the empty syringe i began to shake. Did i get it right? Aaarrgh. My friend was obviously in pain, as expected. But after a minute she patted the area where she substance was injected. “okay na.” she told me, with a thumbs up sign. “and you did great!” then seeing i might pass out anytime, she hugged me. “praning, tapos na. I told you you can do it!”

it was the biggest sigh of relief I’ve ever heaved in ages. And another fear i was able to conquer.

tell me what to do with her… thank heavens for work!

Posted in i am random, what's going on on June 4, 2007 by supahnova

 I think this is the first time, in ages since i really wanted so much to strangle a friend, or maybe shake her vigorously to maybe knock some sense back into her head. Aurgh.
 Unfortunately for me (and good thing for her, jeez!) I am tied up with court work the whole day, running like a headless chicken from Makati RTC to a psychiatrist’s office (i am handling an adoption case, need psych exams for the couple who will adopt), stopping by a cafe to sit down with my laptop which is effin weighing me down, try to breathe, type think… and here goes very considerate friend texting me about the latest with her and the guy. The guy who is currently the object of her … well affection, whatever, it is just wrong wrong wrong because dude is freakin’ married, with a 2 year old son.

It’s another manic Monday and she’s adding to the chaos with her guy woes, when i already told her, many times before to please just get the married guy off her system already.
She would reason she is not trying to encourage him to go have an affair (yes, the guy obviously likes her) – she is just enjoying the feeling, blah blah. I’m like, okay sure, enjoy. But will that really help?
She used to be so level headed, i even considered her to be my voice of reason – i even fondly call her “mommy” sometimes (and she’s just 2 years older)… i don’t know what the hell happened.

I thought maybe she is just enjoying the attention, because after all, he’s really a great guy. But he is married married married and it doesn’t matter how many times we’d agree on that… that she will move on and such… still after like, several hours she would be texting or calling in to gush or whine.

I am whining, yes i know. I am such a brat. She actually asked if we could meet in Starbucks – Shang, and though it’s easy for me to go there i said no. didn’t reply to her messages, ignored the blasted phone for 4 hours until finally i read her messages, all 11 of them with all the horrid updates. Goodness. Overcame with annoyance i actually asked the psychiatrist how much they charge for a whole day session. 12 grand. I wish i can afford to shell that amount for her, ASAP. Hoo boy.

I can’t wait til i am home in my room, so i can either text or call her and tell her, for the nth time, that she is out of her mind and is probably being possessed by some airhead who thinks with her hormones.

This is one of those days when i am glad i am too busy to care, really.